So, What Now?

Alright, here's my dilemma: what the heck am I going to do with the rest of my life?!

1 year ago, I graduated from UAFS with a Bachelor's Degree in History with Teacher Licensure, fully confident that I would be a teacher within the next few months. I got married and moved to North Carolina, where I was certain things were going to turn out just peachy for me. I was working at Chili's and desperately seeking a teaching position. After 2 months, my husband got a job working with computers. I, however, stayed at Chili's and applied to be a substitute teacher in the area. In the next two months, I received two calls to sub which would not replace my income at Chili's.

In February, my husband lost his job. I kept my job at Chili's so we would have an income. He went to a job fair, and a month later was enlisted in the Army. Between the time that he enlisted and left for Basic, he found a part time job. Needless to say, I stayed at Chili's.

Now, we have a steady income. I don't have to worry about where the money is going to come from, because I'm fairly certain that the Army doesn't fire anyone. =) So, I have options now! And there is my problem! For as long as I can remember, I've wanted to teach. I still do, but I just don't know if it's what God really wants for me. You know? Besides that, I really hate getting up at 6 a.m. =) That becomes a problem in teaching... So, if that option is out, then what? I could apply at a pharmacy to be a pharmacy tech. again, but who is hiring right now? No one. Or I could kick it up a notch with Mary Kay. I just don't think that not working is something I'm interested in. With Mary Kay, I'd be home 24/7. I'm not sure I can handle that. Because, once the house is clean, what else is there for me to do? I don't have any kids to take care of. Then there's the writing thing. It's something I've been thinking of lately. Several people have mentioned to me that I have a gift for writing. Yes, I like to write, but a gift? I'm not sure. It would be nice to write again; I wrote a lot in college, and I liked it. I've always liked writing essays; writing for a living might be nice.

So obviously, you can see my dilemma. Ideas? Suggestions? I need some help!!!!