23 May, 2011

Milie Life

Last night around this time, I was on the verge of a breakdown/freak-out. I hadn't heard from my husband in a while and my nerves were beginning to get the best of me. And I already told you how jealous I was that he called my BIL on Saturday...even if it was his wedding day.

I hate to say it, but I'm pretty darn good at convincing myself that my husband hasn't called for any number of reasons. Once I go through all of the clearly logical ones, I go through all of the illogical ones - namely "he doesn't want to talk to me" or "he thinks calling is a waste of time." Obviously, I know that he loves me and that these aren't true but in that moment of sheer anxiety...those thoughts are real and convincing.


During one of those moments, I sent out a "what do I do?" tweet. Lucky for me I have some of the best Tweeps ever! {Also, I happened to be on the same continent and not 5-6 hours behind. This helps.} After I sent out my tweet, two lovely ladies quickly responded. Not only did they tell me I was not being needy or crazy for feeling that way, they encouraged me to email Joe {again} requesting a phone call. I contemplated being angry in the email, but I settled for what I knew my husband responds best to: honesty and emotion. 


In all of the craziness of his life, I think it's easy to forget that things aren't crazy back home for me. Things change for him - he's got 9 billion things to do - but things on the homefront don't change much, if at all. I reminded him of this, and also of how hard this weekend was for me. About 15 minutes later, my phone was ringing and I heard my husband's voice on the other end. =) He was very sweet and recognized that the more emails I sent the more...stressed out I sounded. {Go figure!!} He always tells me how lucky he is, but I feel pretty lucky that I have a husband who is so sensitive to my needs and knows exactly what I need to hear the moment I need it. We both ended up crying a little bit, but that was a very much needed phone call. And, Abbey, you were right, I'll never regret sending that email!! =)


It's the encouragement that I get from my Milie/Twitter/blog friends that keeps me going. If I ever questioned why I keep blogging, that was my answer right there. Plus, all of the wonderful friends I've made in Hawaii have been through blogging!! Mrs. C, Miranda, Annie, Chantal... I met all of them in blogland before I ever met them in real life. =) And now, I have such great friends!! Annie is even watching Jasper {and checking my mail and setting my DVR =P} for me while I'm home visiting family!! I've really lucked out in the bloggie friend department. Just for fun, here's a little collage of pictures Annie sent me. 




He is so freakin' spoiled!!! You really do gotta love him though. =) Oh, and here's a picture of my {hot} hubby receiving an Army Commendation Medal a few days ago! Woop!




This Milie life is hard, but there are so many things that make it worth it. If only I can remember all of those on the bad days!!

9 comments:

Jes said...

it amazes me how much God knows our needs and rewards us with the things we need in the exact moment we need them.

I had a down right rotten day last week and to top it off, I found out (for the 2nd time since we've been here) that someone had taken my words and twisted them in a malicious way then "repeated" them. I could not believe that someone I trusted had made up these things that I apparently said. I was horrified and ANGRY. So angry, I wanted to get on a plane and fly back to America just to get away from this place....then I received an email. From a COL that had worked with Jason in Sendai. The email was nothing but praise for my husband and the work he did up there. It ended with

"But I realize that Jason would not be nearly as good of an officer and role model as he is, if it were not for your valuable support, patience, and understanding. And it is for this, that I want to express my sincere thanks and appreciation."

Those words were exactly what it took for me to realized it's all worth it. I'm pretty sure that all the spouses of soldiers who deployed to Sendai got the same email, but I don't think he will ever know how valuable his words were to me.

It's great to have an awesome God huh?

IT'S ALMOST OVER! HUGS!

Chantal said...

Aw I'm glad for all my bloggy friends I met too!

Skinnie Piggie said...

So glad you have such a great support system =) I'm also glad your husband was able to get your e-mails & call you!

~The Buzuleciu's~ said...

Aww I'm glad I met you as well!!

PS- Your puppy is so stinkin' cute and sweet :)

Sven & Trin said...

Hi. I came across your blog from another milspouse blog and I noticed you're stationed in Hawaii. I am too! I also noticed you had a picture of an equip and inspire bulletin, do you go to HCWO? Anyway, my name is Trinity and I just wanted to say hi since it looks like we may have a few things in common! I'm excited that your donut of misery is turning green! Best feeling in the world.

Mr. Superman & Mrs. S. said...

I'm so glad you got to hear from him! It always helps the heart tugs to settle down a bit.

Jen said...

So glad you were able to hear from him.

Kimberly said...

Thats so sweeeet! I'm glad you got a call! :)

A Creed and A Psalm said...

Love your blog! I stumbled upon it seeing who was hosting the round-up this week. I am a new military wife and new blogger, and it has already produced friends at my current base! And never feel bad to send those emails - sometimes they just don't realize how frazzled we get sometimes! P.S. I'm your newest follower :)

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